Everyday

I’ve spent the past year looking in – being with family, maybe shrinking back a bit. I’ve been living in the everyday.

I don’t consciously say, today I will think of her…rather, it is everyday that I see my Mom.

She is calling out, Chicks. 

She is congratulating Ephraim on making honor roll and recommending a book; 

She is sitting beside me as I sew Rannanah’s Elsa costume; 

She is in Orlee’s hand as she draws an elephant; and at the library telling me I’m crazy for joining the Read to a dog program.

She is part of our everyday – at dinner, before bed and just for a story.

When I saw Beyonce's "I was here", I wasn’t sure what moved me. It's not really that good of a song, though Beyonce’s voice is beautiful. Then it struck me, it reminded me of Mommy.

I think that everyone can agree, that she left a legacy that said, “I was here.”

And although I think about her everyday, that does not replace her actually being here.

Happy birthday Mommy, I do very much miss you.

P.S. For those wondering, this year, Elan and I will be sponsoring a pre-Pesach dinner at our Shul for the yartzheits of Elan’s Mom and my Mom.